It seems to me that as the years pass, the commitment I have to a certain understanding of truth naturally solidifies. In part this solidification occurs because of the growing web of relationships and responsibilities. The older I get, the harder it is to change my truth foundation.
Beneath all of this activity, beneath my methodical efforts to actualize this understanding of truth, there is a sense that I cannot allow my solidification to become calcification. It grows more difficult to make a radical change. Somehow, though, I experience a fear that this course I have been on could prevent me from seeing the course I should be on.
I cannot stop questing.